:D after we met him we stayed at the venue and had some drinks, my l-83 friends took phoots of me with him in the background! LOLZ

It looks he's had to many himself lol

I LOVE that you did that, Kiya! I probably would have too :D

haha, and I got a few of them too :oops: in one we both have the same looks on our faces LOL

Now I wanna see the other ones too :lol: Hey, Stephy! How's it goin? The anniversary of our meeting just passed...it was father's day weekend last year! lol "meeting" sounds funny...like we got together and sat down to discuss something. How about "meet-up". Can you believe it's been a year? I saw your comment on my myspace pic...you look good, and it's hard to look good on a hot day. That's why I look bad. Ha

aww that's right its been a year. geeze times flyes ha. I'm doing alright, work is hell nothing new there lol I just found out last night my brother got arrested and is in jail for 60 days on drunk driving charges. This isn't his first time being picked up for drinking and driving but its a first for jail. I'm surprised he hasn't been to jail yet with the many times he's been picked up and been in car wrecks. Good jail can do him good. It wasn't enough he got kicked out of his house, he see his daughters at HIS convenience, doesn't pay child support, he's lost jobs, gotten in car wrecks, picked up, HAD CANCER and yet he still doesn't get it through his fucking head he's got a problem. His girlfriend totally gives into his problem and lets him drink, oh that's right, he doesn't have a problem according to him its everyone else. :roll:

meh, I'm sorry Steph. maybe someday it will get through :/

Sorry, Steph. Really. Some day he'll see the error of his ways...I just hope he doesn't hurt himself or anyone else before that. *hugs*

Aww, Steph :-( Hope he gets straightened out soon, maybe this time he will. I'll keep him in my prayers again, like during the cancer. Tim took the telescope outside tonight cause we were able to see the space station. It was a tiny dot lol We looked at Venus and the moon too. I thought of you cause I know you like that stuff :)

aww I haven't used my telescope in a long time maybe the next time I go to our camp at the lake I'll take it ha. I made a new blog layout I really like how this one came out and I don't say that to often about my layouts they suck most of the time lol http://gotmedia.org/tinytragedies/ :D

Sorry I haven't been around to spread the pre concert cheer, you have to have it in order to spread it :-s The past 3 days have been so bad I can't even describe it, I don't even remember the last time I have cried this much *sigh* I guess I should start with Wednesday. My mom drops a bomb shell by saying she's made up her mind and she's moving out, her car is paid off in October or somewhere in there and that's when she's moving out. She can't take the bs with her boyfriend anymore, after 4 years it just isn't working nor will it ever work. They're to alike to get along. They both are very studborn people, who can't talk to each other effectively etc..etc. I am not surprised that she is unhappy and stuff she was telling me last year that she may consider moving out in the future, I was just surprised how fast she was moving out, I didn't see it coming this soon. I just rather not get into details as to what is the main issues that could be another 10 paragraphs. So It wasn't till the following night she was talking more about it, that I got upset. She was like, your a grown adult, you can make your own choices, if you want to stay that is perfectly fine with me. I know you think a lot of him and stuff and it wouldn't change anything between us if you do. I still care a lot for him but I just can't deal with living her anymore. I realized then I have to make a choice, I want to stay I don't mind living here, but if I do stay, I'd have to keep paying rent,which is one of the main issues that my mom has he thinks more of his money then us as family. I can't afford to keep paying rent like I am, I could have moved out and gotten my own place with the rent I am putting out. I was just overwhelmed with that I was crying all Thursday night. I have been having trouble sleeping since the start of this week, at first it was cause I was so happy for my vacation and that I was seeing John in less then a week but by the end of this week it wasn't happy. Soooooooooooooo we get to last night, which was the major breaking point. They have had fights before..but not like this, not this bad, loud, harsh..etc Lets just say words were said that I will not repeat and things were said that If I had said them I would be embarrassed. I was like I've had enough of this bullshit, and went up to my room where I could hear them (probably the neighbors to) This was around 5:30ish, I just started to bawl my eyes out, I went to bed at 11 and STILL was crying. I've listen to them have fights before but for some reason it really effected me this time, I think knowing my mom is moving out and the tension just made it worst. So after things cooled down my mom comes into my room and she''s like I'm sorry you had to be in the middle of that and then walks out.. I couldn't sleep worth a darn, every time I tried to go to asleep my throat would just choke up and I would start crying again. All day at work today I was just in such a funk, I didn't feel right and I felt sick to my stomach. Her boyfriend comes up to me at work (we work in the same place) and he's like I'm sorry for yelling..then he also walks away. I'm like I hope you say sorry to my mom after the names you called her. Things Is I'm not mad I'm just so stressed and such a nervous wreck now I don't even know what to feel. I SHOULD have been excited that today was my last day before my vacation but instead I was dreading to go home. Needless to say when I got home, he went up to our camp for the weekend..my mom was like..surprise..surprise why do you thin he ran off. I'm like DROP THE FUCKING BULLSHIT. She's like I am sorry you had to see that, I know it makes you uncomfortable...uncomfortable...you have no f-ing clue as to how uncomfortable it is, to hear people screaming at each other. She's like, you know I was married to your father fore 15 years we never once fought. in 4 hours I have fought all the time with this one, we are just to alike. :roll: sooooo in the end the start of my vacation has been blown. I was going up to our camp on the lake but there is no way I am going up while he's there, that is out of the question. So there go half of that plan, I'm not happy, no in fact I want to get up in some one face and just scream. I'm stressed about going back to school, I'm stressed about so many things this is the last thing I need. *sigh* I just now feel extremely unsteady/uncomfortable now in this house. When he comes back him I'm going to be thinking omg is it going to happen again. As i am writing this I have a pit in my stomach that is just making me nauseous. Well like they say, a good concert makes things go away right? :roll: sorry for the long post :(

Steph, is there any place you can stay for a bit, like a friend/relative's house? That is sucha mess and I am sorry you have to be put through that. The last thing anyone needs is to be exposed to such a tense and volatile environment. I know words can't do too much to make you feel better...try and look forward to heading down to Boston, let the music take you away for an hour and a half and try and breathe deeply and think about nothing...nothing at all. *hugs*

eh I guess I am going up to our camp on the lake, I don't really care. But I'm nervous cause I know he wants to talk to me about it and I don't wanna talk about it anymore, it happen I wanna forget about it. No there isn't anyone I can stay with it, but It doesn't matter anymore in a month or two my mom will be out and I'm probably going to move out to. *shrugs* I have my hair appointment this afternoon so I'll go up and I won't be back till Monday, I get to have the camp to myself for two days which is good I need to be away from people lol.

I hope getting away for a couple days will help...but how can you have the camp to yourself, I thought you said he was there? Be careful, and just keep thinking about John! On Thursday night Ben and I were coming home from the store about 9pm, and he said he wants to go back to where your mom works so we can see Stephanie again :) Here's a hug from me (and Ben) *hugs*