Steph, aren't you back from your dad's yet? It's been a lonely weekend without you...and I still haven't seen pirates :cry: Hope you had a good time there, did you see the movie a second time yet?

I'm back, man i'm tired, i hate driving to my dad's cause its 2 hours but it took longer this weekend cause NASCAR is going on so it took me an hour 45 mintues. I HATED sitting in the traffic, whenever Bike week or something like this is going on the interstate is CRAZY. I was only not even a half of mile from my exit and it took me 45 mintues :evil: oh well. I have not see Pirates yet again i knew i wouldn't have time this weekend, but hopefully this weekend i will.

Happy Monday ladies!!! :D Only six more weeks of summer vacation!!! :o Oy, can I make it????

6 more weeks till summer is over? that's 6 more weeks i'll have to suffer through at work, working in 95-100 degree's that's stinky, nasty, gross, CAN I MAKE IT? *faints* I've gone my hands full for the next 3 weeks, i'm baby sitting Room For Two while Dora is gone, at least i have something to do..i never have anything to do online anymore LOL Speaking of which i gotta update now, new article haha

Anna and Ben just have 6 weeks of vacation left too...I think we'll make it! Steph, I can't believe it's so hot where you work, that's inhumane!!!!!

OMG today was so horrible, everyone including me was in such in a bleh and bitch mood, my supervisor was BITCH today i'm telling you. At one point i was ready to cry not cause of her but i barely could keep it together cause of how hot it was in that place. We are in the middle of a nasty heat wave outside just alone, so it was around 100 today outside so that means it much have been 105-110 inside the place. I was ready to walk out, that place is just driving me nuts, and my supervisor doesn't help the problem any more. I felt extreamly angry all day, not just upset i mean PISSED off mood, it was worst i think cause it was just so damn $@# hot. :evil: Then i come home and i'm like mom can i use the fan upstairs to take to work during the day cause the fans we have are over our head but they suck cause all they do is blow hot air, if i have one on the table at least i'll be able to have some cool air. She's like no i don't you want using that one, you'll get it dirty and stuff from the dust at work. i go are you kidding me? you really going to go make go out and buy one when i can save money in just using one at home, i'm not even at the part of the factory that is really dusty or anything just kinda gross but nothing that would effect a damn fan. So i had to go out and buy a new one. :roll: Forgive me for wanting a little comfort, sorry that much be to much to ask. DAMN IT is it friday yet :cry:

Our heat index is 105...WTF? And yet, not too many people take global warming seriously... I have NOT left the house for two days except for groceries...the kids are going whacko! Somewhere there is a mint julep with my name on it...

awww I hate summer......not looking forward to it, I am cherishing my winter days!

Oh man, that is too hot, Steph! You definitely need a fan and maybe even a cold bandana around your neck or something. It is supposed to be 107 degrees here today--eegads!! Tracy, I'm with you: too hot to do anything but stay in the airconditioning! Jo

Hey Jo!!! Good to see you round these here parts!!! :D It's a chilly 90 here today, practically fall-like.... :lol: :lol: I'll take it. 102 yesterday, and it actually felt like you were breathing in fire outside. Maine is calling.....

I need some advice cause i'm kinda in a spilt here. There is this girl at work who i get along very well, sometimes she drives me nuts and she's sometimes rude but she has my kinda of humor, she's very nice though and we make each other laugh alot, she's my age 21, well we were born the same year lol. ANYWHO, she's invited me a few times to go out with her and even invited me to her new apartment once she got settle, i said i would be more then happy to hang out with her after work. The thing is, i have never had a friend before, meaning someone who was nice to me in away that acutally INVITED me somewhere, (not counting online friends) i mean someone who was like, hey wanna go out drinking sometime, kinda friend, its nice, but i feel really werid and at times uncomfortable about it cause im not a social person i've been aloner my whole life, and lately i've just been wanting to get out of this box i'm in but i dunno what to do really. The problem is she is the typical person i always go for, someome who very outgoing, who is very open, isn't afraid to speak there mind..etc. I just don't know how to act or what to say outside of the work area, and going back to the part where she is rude, i've told dora this but on our second day of working together she asked me a VERY personal question i'd rather not say it here, but since then i've felt very werid being around her. I dunno, i guess i finally found someone i could be good friends with but there are some things that annoy me about her that i can't really get past. :-| The thing is another girl who i get along well with asked me if i wanted to go out drinking sometime too, of course eveytime i get asked i already had plans..bleh. I don't mind going out drinking or whatever but these people are the type that get DRUNK and i don't feel right going out with THERE friends whom i don't know, and getting "drunk" with. If it was just work friends maybe, but i don't drink, nor to i tend to make it a everynight thing either. I've told the girl i work with that i don't drink but i wouldn't mind going out anyway..etc It just bugs me that the people i would like to be friend with aren't really the type i feel ok being around ya know, that doesn't make sense i know, but why do people feel the need to get drunk to have fun. :roll: no no its not peer pressure i'm feeling so don't think that..LOL i just would like to have friends i can have agood laugh with which i do, but i dunno if i should take a chance and just go for it make myself feel weird being out of my box anyway and give it a shot, i don't want to be a loser for the rest of my life thinking i had chances to do something in my life but turn them down cause i was scared.

well-y well well.... i know steph and have hit on this before, I'm a shy person as well.. and i think we've discussed the whole not liking people at school issue..if u remember or not. and omg. i'm like u i go for outoging crazy bubbly exciting people that me myself, am nothing like... I think it's sort of a way to compensate for what u think u lack, altho u dont cos ur a fun nice caring, exciting cool person.. just not that outgoing.. i think me hanging w/ outgoing people i find myself more reserved..i let them do all the socializing andn i sort of observe.. then que in every once in awhile.. its hard to explain ... hm... well the whole drinking going out thing.. i say at first plan like a lunch or movie or something with just them. like the potential friend..to get to know more.. and slowly get to know they're firends so u feel comfy going out drinking or something... and dont feel uncomfy letting them know ur views on how u dont drink much, friends respect that.. mine do... iono if this helps.. but.. i hope so?

no i see what your saying, and acutally your dead on right about the compensating things, i tend to really be attracted to people who are crazy and wild, cause that's what i am but i don't show it with people i don't really know. But i still tend to be drawn to people who i feel are what i want to be. That's why i even tell people i meet online don't take what you see at first as who i am, i'm very shy and not talkive at first...ect if you ask my family or even people at my last job who know me VERY well. The only group of non family memebers who truely know what kind of a person i am was the friends i had at the store. But that took 2 years of full trust, and comfort and getting to know them before i really let go. I guess what it comes down to is i still have major trust issues with people cause of what i went through in high school and how i look at myself, i fight with this feeling like i HAVE to be outgoing i HAVE to have a hundred friends and a big social life to be happy, which is what i don't want, i just want to not feel like i'm missing out on life, which i know i am. I don't want to be the loser still living at home at a dead end job still thinking i could have done something about it.

yup yup. i know thats what i do like.. u get to know me i'm crazy jump up and down like energetic wild person.. hell i'm in theatre! that's what i do best. .but i tell u what.. this first semester at sac state, i'm going to be the shyest theatre person u see.. it took me four years to open up to all the kids during high school.. like people dont believe me when i say i do theatre (that i just meet) .. u dont need to have a hundred friends.. i just realized that having 3 friends who know me better than i know myslef is better than haiving like 15 who i sorta have things in common with or like hanging out with.. why force what isn't there?? ... and darlin trust me ya wont be that loser... it takes time, but they'll grow to love ya just like we do!!!! cos fo sho ur one of my true dear friends who i tell things i dont tell others!!! lol my in person friends here know who "stephy" is *giggles*.. "oooh jm rite?".. lol u betcha!

well I reckon you should go for it stephy! who knows! you might have fun! :D